I have to apologise for the lack of updates. There has just been a continuous flow of thoughts and emotions going through my head that I can’t seem to pen them down fast enough. These thoughts and emotions are of course triggered by a chain of events that have happen. And quite unfortunately, most of them aren’t exactly good news.
It is this sense of uncertainty in my life that is really a pain in the butt. But one thing is almost certain, my journey as a rower is about to come to an abrupt and unfortunate end. Though unfulfilled and plagued by favoutism (of course not in my favour), short-sighted, egoistic, power hungry administration, it was still a blast! The amazing people I have met around the world, the amazing athletes that I have been fortunate enough to train with, the excellent support staff that went beyond the call of duty, the people who believed in my Olympic dream. Yes, it saddens me to have to accept that it might just stay a dream.
On the brighter side of things, disappointment has always been a driving factor to pick myself up. A huge chunk of my athletic career I have had to play the underdog. It has its positives, but not having a balance might have been a cause of my lack of achievements as well. In the midst of planning and negotiations are a few new exciting prospects and opportunities. Nothing concrete yet. Which is the reason behind my constant blank look and lack of excitement for the festive holidays. That and of course a literally almost empty piggie bank.
More to be revealed as hopefully after the holidays, the pieces can start to be put in place. In the meantime, I suppose it’s probably worthwhile kicking back to a beer, enjoy the company of good mates and enjoy what is left of 2011. Hope everyone had a wonderful christmas and an even smashing New Year!